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Wednesday, August 25, 2004

hey ppl.changed my blog. want the address ask from me.
take care peeps

melody @ 5:50 AM

Sunday, August 15, 2004

i got this strange feeling in me..it's not the same.. i somehow feel that i'm kinda falling in luv wif u.. i regret it..i noe i shudn't hav rejected u.. but i can't help it.. din't knoe tt my relationship wouldn't last wif tt asshole.. but somehow i can't go wif u now.. cos u got someone by ur side alr.. some one whom i knoe.. i'm feeling hurt.. feeling lost.. dun knoe wad 2 do.. i thot u would always b there for me.. be by my side.. but now.. i knoe u can't.. although we r still frens.. it's diff..

i dunno y i'm feelin this way..it's so weird..i know i shudn't b..n i'll stop tinkin bout u.......

melody @ 7:24 AM

Saturday, August 14, 2004

go check out my photo album!!!
uploaded some pics inside

melody @ 11:49 PM

juz got back fm church..so damn sticky,oily,smelly..and TIRED!

yesterday was so freakin tiring xia..had cross country in mornin..then came home..prac violin for 130 hours..then went to church n helped out in the kitchen
guess wad?we didn't poison the food..thanks to bernie, gloria, sarah n me! haha..and of course to jon n rusell for cutting ginger too..haha..bernie,glo sarah n me did eggys! first we washed the mud(which looked more lyk shit!) off the eggs..then peeled them n sliced them(more lyk mashed them la)haha..then i went for mass..after tt went ponderosa 4 a wonderful meal..thanks to diarrhoea n i can't eat much..but swallowed a charcoal tablet..hehe..it helped i suppose..knocked out when went back......

today was quite great..tink we made more than 130 bucks..yipee! sold chee cheong fan, yam cake n soon kueh thingys..hehe..was perspiring lyk crazy..hope nothing EXTRA dropped in2 the food...ahahahaha..let's hope!
first glo,steph,claire n some others were there..sarah came n dissapeared(sean dragged us there)..then me glo n lavinia did the rest..but after tt carol came for awhile..then crystal helped out too..haha..christianne oso..lotsa ppl bought..(which is a gd thing)..although we sold it for 50 cents each..yum yum..hehe

this wk pass so quickly..damn..hate it! oh shit.. got MEP exam..hehe

dear gloria..i dun tink we contaminated the food after all..cos there are no complains yet..hehehehehehe..but nvm..if they asked who cooked it..and they get food poisoning..i'll say it's YOU..hehe..take care

melody @ 10:46 PM

Friday, August 13, 2004

kk..purposely made the font size bigger for the blind 2 c as well..haha..anw..had string today..so freaking boring..was waiting for the bloody combine 2 b over..anw..
tmrw's cross country..oh man..ruined my sat morning..suppose 2 hav chi tuition lor..then aft tt goin zhi ying house..she accompanying my for my violin exam..hehe..then gotta go church..got marketing to do..then most prob going for 6pm mass lor..hmmmm

yup..realli agree wif wad gloria said on her blog..realli wonder wad it's gonna b lyk this sun wif con 3 ppl handling the canteen..especially con 3D..haha..all the clumsy ppl..*gosh*
n also..sarah n gloria handling the food on sat...*gasps* whoever eats it gotta b careful..it'll b poisoned terribly by them..hehe...jkjk..
doing this marketing thing..gloria's in it too..haha..gotta get ppl to patronize our stalls..actualli we're juz making money $$$ so tt we can hv better food during our con3 camp..(according to aunty veron la)..haha..aiyar..charmaine haven't get her exam date yet..how am i gonna change wif her? haiz..die lar..i can't miss the first day of camp!!!

i can't stand certain ppl who r damn despo lor..dun wanna mention names la..wa lao..they realli damn..................................AHH.......are they afraid they juz can't get any other gerl next time? siao la..or isit their parents xia..stupid shit..anw..damn tired now..tmr gonna b a clown 4 zany parade..wish our class best of luck for running too!! i looooovveeeeeee 3e5!

melody @ 7:10 AM

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

yawn yawn..so tired..juz came back fm violin lesson..hmmm..stupid!got my violin exam date..clashes wif my con 3 camp!ahhh!!!the worse thing is tt it clashes wif the 1st day of my camp!!tt's the impt day where u get to socialise n all..haiz..sighz!!!nvm..but called charmaine 2 c if she can change wif me..doo doo doo..can't wait 4 violin exam 2 b over in fact..so can concentrate on piano once again..hee..i'm crazy! so scared for my scales..they're pissing me off!juz can't play them well..
got back A math CA today..yeah i passed! thanks 2 failing for spring test..realli woke me up! but gotta work harder for the other CA in 2 wks time..yawn..can't believe it when i saw the CA time-table in class today..realised tt we got bout 3 more wks till the sept holidays!but tt means it'll nearing to my violin exam!! haha..

my violin is..
this brown block of wood..
wif 4 "dominant" strings ..
temperamental as it screeches when it's angry..
if time passes by quickly..
it'll get older day by day..
n by the time i reach 25..
it'll b an old age of 12...
nevertheless..
it's my beloved violin..
n i treasure the value it possesses..................

melody @ 4:22 AM

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

today was great..but actualli suppose 2 go gym wif mum in the mornin..sara stayed overnite last nite..we slept till 11 today..then went TM in the afternoon..shop for awhile..bought lotsa clothes fm THIS FASHION..haha..most of it lissa buy one..spent 100 bucks..but mum paid..duh!
then went cafe cartel for lunch..ate the spicy thai pasta..then had the soup..so damn bloated xia..*fats*..den went shopping again..lissa wanted to buy bra..so sara n i went shopping 4 bags n stuff..then mum n sis met aunty angie n gladys buyin bra too..so qiao their car park next 2 ours oso..haha..then went watson's bought this lip gloss thingy..mum paid!!yeah!!met gladys at yoshinoya..haha..tt fatty gerl..(always complaining bout her fats then still eat so much!)
then went sara's house..ate my soft squid fritters fm old chang kee..waited for dad's call then picked him up from airport..
sickening..when got back..after eating..i saw sth which i knew i shudn't hav seen..but anw..i saw it..n wadeva lor..u can jolly well treat him as ur wadeva la..but hell do i care...!!!so "qing mi" ar...nvm..melody's gonna get her revench on some stuff..she's not gonna tell though..!!
*life sucks when sch is startin tmr..haven't signed the test papers i failed for..damn it!haven't studied for A math test..haven't done so many things..gonna get hell fm mdm chee!!*
u knoe..sometimes i fell diff bout the way ppl treat me..n i dun knoe wad it means..rmbr melody...u gotta study..not fall in love again..u dun wanna end up lyk last time..oh wad the hell!.

melody @ 6:05 AM

u knoe..being pissed is one ting..but being realli mad n angry is YET another..y shud i b in such a mood when hey.. NATIONAL DAY!!! however,it's still necessary 2 blog my views n opinions on the horrendous ting i juz received.. oh well..juz tired of sayin it but.. people need to get a life!if tings r settled alr..let it b..i mean..come on.......it's not as if it's the end of the world..firstly..u agreed on it..y the hell didn't u tell me wad u said in the bloody damn letter on the 3rd of August..it's not as if u didn't or rather....dun have the courage rite? if u have the courage to write..i dun c wad's the damn problem in saying it out..?? this is seriously a BIG n HUGE misunderstanding..u realli got me wrong..n there's no need for me 2 explain anything at this time of a moment as it won't make a change in my decision anymore! it's ok u knoe..u can call me wadeva u want..bitch or anythin..it's not as if i mind..(i learnt to take things much easier).. talked to caroline today..she's realli a freakin gd advisor..anw..we share lotsa our probs together..n juz when lissa came home..tings got worse for me..nvm..at least lissa noes now..wadeva..hack care lar..back to the freakin ting!(referring back to relevant resources..)(uh huh!there!)it's like u're expecting further tings fm me..i can promise u tt..u wun get any blessings fm me anymore..seriously u knoe..nothing pissed me off more than wad u did tt nite..actualli..it gave me a deeper understanding on what the REAL you is all about..u knoe..sometimes u realli gotta knoe wad u're doing..n see if u're on the right track..for now..you're......NOT! u're juz too harsh when it comes to such tings..n u juz dun noe the right way to react..!! tink b4 u speak..it helps a lot..*(flips the pages...)it's not as if i wanna sae it here..but too bad u knoe..it's MY blog..so i can EXPRESS my feelings..wad the hell do u tink i am now man..bloody shit..a machine tt u can complain 2 or r u juz trying to use me as ur blog..?? u knoe..those tings tt u wrote can make a person feel hurt? or mayb u tink i'm dead or sth..but hello..there's no such ting as spirits typin on a computer rite? take it this way ok..i dun care or bother bout anythin tt has gotta do between us anymore..cos i'm sick n tired of spendin my night tinkin of ways to get myself 2 tink bout wad u said! y shud i do such a ting? here m i askin ppl to get a life when i dun hv my own one? (mind u but i'm not a dumb blonde) -_-" if u jolly well knoe my intention of not wanting to get back..y isit tt u're still "pestering" me? hey..come on..in life..ppl gotta give n take..i can? y can't u? u knoe wad? fm this..i finally c the real person tt u r..i regretted not following wad other ppl said last time..realli..including my parents..u care bout others more than urself..in a way it's correct..but tink bout it..u are caring too much bout other ppl tt u dun even care bout urself..it comes to a point where u dun noe wad u're doing! u can b sad n cry ur hearts out for all i care..i dun realli bother anymore..stop bringing out promises or tings that happened in the past..stop bringing out moments of happiness or sadness..stop trying to make my feel sad or cry juz for u to hear..cos it's no use..it doesn't work for me any longer..u're seriously not being urself...time n time again i try to tell myself tt hey..i'm tinkin the wrong way..but no! i see wad i realli feel now..and i'm feeling a whole load of diff than wad i felt bout u 3 months ago..*fuck man*..if this is hard for u to handle..i dunno wad's gonna happen next time when u experience other probs..BIGGER probs..i dunno if it's possible tt next time we'll still b togeda..i dunno whether we shud..i dun suppose so..anw..i dun wish to tok bout anythin concernin this issue anymore..sick n tired of it..juz do wadeva u want..live ur own life..at least now u dun have ME to bother bout u anymore..no one to call u or sms u everyday..or anyone to wake u up on sundays,,,carry on slp-in..none of my business..dun bother writing letters to me or sending emails..i dun wanna see them..and wadeva u say now will be a passing comment to my ear..as u say..it's for my own gd..so let's see bout it..melody feels gd tt she doesn't needa bother bout relationships now..as she's living a wonderful life wif friends n family members who's always at her side..she thanks all those who consoles her at times of sadness..especially..zhaoey..xinyi..farah..amelia..adrian..caroline..and not forgetting darius!thanks all!

melody @ 5:53 AM

Saturday, August 07, 2004

things hav been goin fine...perhaps..for a day so far..talked to carol n adrian today..things will go well i suppose..anw..carol mite b goin 2 study wif me tmr..yipee! den at least i wun b so bored n lost fm A math n E math..doom!
hmm..sth's juz wrong..dunno y though..but juz feel left out sometimes..as in..oh nvm..dun tink i shud say it here..but anw..tink maybe i shudn't hav quit last time..oh well..but i tink i need more time in my studies still..haha..kinda confusing..oh wadeva!
going out shopping n treating mum lunch on tue..finally!we agreed tt i pay for lunch n she pay for the shopping..(i mean..i agreed!)haha..mayb i shud juz treat her to food court..wun hav to pay so much..!!hehe..no lar..not so evil..mayb genki or sth..see how lar..got lotsa tings to shop for..wanna buy new bag..concealer..and make-up..lots of things more as well..oh i can't wait..have been seeing all the nice things in the magazines i hav been reading..this overseas mag n cleo..if onli i hav money...sigh
oh well..glad tt tings r better wif darius n gloria..haha..gd luck on ur relationship guys!all the best k k?
!!!HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO S'PORE IN A DAYS TIME!!!

melody @ 11:15 PM

hmm..seems lyk i haven't blogged since OBS..haha..oh well..suddenly decided to blog cos...........got 5 days of holi! but hav 2 study as well..prepare for final years..though it's kinda earli still..failed chem n chinese so far..have 2 realli work much harder!
life has realli been changing 4 me..hopefully 4 the betta..wif the recent news of EXCO results 4 both string n PB..din expect it actualli..lol..ms lau gave me sucky posts though..violin II SL n secretary..quite a lot of work 2 do..but shudn't b a prob lar..den for PB..am the Public Relations comm chairman..coping well..sometimes gotta call ppl..n pass up proposals..but it's quite fun la..hehe..
but 3e5 has always been v supportive of everyone..that's y we're the best class so far..zany parade n cross-country arriving..kinda afraid..but confident tt we can do it!:)
though i quit sabbath day choir alr..but realli support them all the way!!!cos they're fun n enthu!!love singing wif them..but sometimes kinda havoc la..but always enjoying ourselves!the youth mass is over..hopefully another one is coming up!in 2 months time according to darius..muz realli go buy more presents this time..think the chocs last time wasn't enuf.. :p sorri..hehe..can't wait for the con 3 camp on 9-11 sept..tink there'll be praise n worship n all..yeah!!
anw..zhaoey n the rest..if u're tinkin i was sad bout wad had happen tt day..nope..i wasn't..juz depressed that failed chem n chinese..kinda feel v "si bai"..but i'll work harder! n mrs sin scolded us on thur.."hey..if u tink that we're always late..wait till u see ms sim..she's seldom earli as well ok..and excuse me!i do have reasons n dun do it on purpose..so u gotta get that straight into ur mind ok..not as if i enjoying running bout looking for a teacher!damn it!" so bloody pissed that day! spoil my mood!
mum n dad came back fm nanjing alr..bought lotsa clothes!!but can't wear some..too fat!bought cheongsam 4 me too..pink one! same as sis..but bigger so can wear next yr..hey i survived 3 days without mum!haha
!!!HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO S'PORE IN 2 DAYS TIME!!!

melody @ 2:41 AM

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14 goin 15.14 nov '89.TKGS.3e5 '04.string ensemble.prefectorial board.holy trinity church. sabbath day choir/band